in the past week i have probably learned more about my own behavior than i guess ever

i have spent most of my time doing the following:

painting painting painting- i have been so influenced by a Denton band known as Western Giant's song: Park. I plan on exhibiting my house to hopefully a live performace of the song on the 21 of may. this performance/exhibit will include the work of artist's Sloane Solley, Bethany Eden, Al Holt, Paul Young, and Travis Sykes along with some poetry reading because literary art is such a commonly overlooked form here. excited

riding my bicycle- i have really begun to appreciate the roads far more when they are empty..who knew i guess

constantly referring to ward schumakers blog in hopes to catch a glimpse at his latest work- yeah

because all of these things have taken up such a grand space in my head. I am more likely to pay less attention to the One who gave it all.

I am not saying that any of these things are bad. But because i have spent more time doing so without the specific recognition of how the enjoyment of all these things are possible, iget..err i dunno caught up in them to the point of where they begin to become things that though i thoroughly enjoy doing, they past the time and build nothing.

for a while, painting became a tool for catching and tending to the attentions of the viewers, i even considered how much money i could possibly sell them for, which only hurt my mind. NO! drawing, slapping painting together, combining, making

ALL of that was and is used to point to Him! art is a form of worship: Christ-given talents and a child who makes His name known with them.

it's all i can offer and i don't want to be caught using them to build my own already tumbling empire

i am learning that Christ never leaves me, i leave him. and even if it is for a short period, how can a bride choose to chase wind instead of being with a faithful husband?

thank you Lord for art! thank you Father for peace that can only be found in You and never in the creation in which You gave us.

i will use the things i enjoy to honor You and not myself, to please You and not myself.

what will have i but Yours?

none.